I don't think there's a line between them.

Today I went to my high school reunion. It was so much fun to see all the old faces again.

We all talk about completely different things now than we did in high school.

We all worry about the same things.

Worrying is pretty annoying, but it's also important.

We worry about something because it's important to us, and it hurts because it's something we can't let go of.

The people that stay by your side at times like that are the really important people, I think.

Today I'm writing music with some of my important people!

It's going to be fun!

How is everyone!?
I'm doing well! So well I can't sleep!
Hurrah for Insomnia!
When I sleep I can't wake up!

Lately I'm either in the studio, in the house or in a family restaurant. I'm a total resident of Sakai: I never go more than 10 minutes from my house.

Oh, but I did go tangerine picking the other day.
I'd never gone before and I'd always wanted to.
I got so into it I ended up having a ton of tangerines to bring home.
That's practically all I've been eating at home.

Tomorrow work finally takes me over the Yamato River. I'm excited!

I took a picture because this is just too cool. I bet Leader will love the colors.

Now we're in the studio.

Juice after the studio.

Tae-chan had a lot of great ideas today.

It's been really col din Osaka lately, and it sucks riding my bike home. But today I went home with Saki and Tomi and it was so much fun I forgot about the cold.

I was watching this TV program where they asked people "Has your childhood dream come true?"

When I was a kid, I had so many dreams...

I wanted to join the theater.
I wanted to be a pirate.
I wanted to be a voice actress.
I also wanted to be a pastry chef.

A lot of those dreams started with and ended as a yearning. But you only yearn for things like that because the people doing them are so cool.

These days I have a new dream, but it's still important.

I hope people's dreams will come true and make them happy!

We all took a photo together. We used to hang out all the time in High school! Ah, the memories! Awayokuba (the band) is really cool and hip-hop!

My cell phone was dying so I had Saki take these. Today we went to an event some friends put on. It was fresh because it had a different atmosphere than they events we usually do!

Four times this month. (LOL)

Not enough for it to be a problem. It felt like we'd been here more often.

I went to tick tack today because they were doing a Music Challenge event and the 50RPMs were appearing as guests. I was happy to see them again. They're so cool!

I got to see MARK'E from 802 and we got a chance to chat, which made it a wonderful day.

Today Moriko and I went to go see 'This is It.'

There are so many kinds of love.
Love for your family.
Love for your friends.
Love for your boyfriend
Love for the person you're cheating on your boyfriend with...which is kind of sad but

I've got so much love, and I want to give love to so many people.

Some people are so full of love.
I know Michael was that kind of person.
And that's why he could move so many people, make them laugh and give them dreams.

A person who takes and gives love.
A wonderful person.

No matter how much love there is
we always want more. That's wonderful.

Ikasu came to my house this afternoon. She taught me a bunch of chords on the guitar.

今I'm at BIG CAT to see Special Others. How many times a month do we come to Big Cat? LOL

今日はホーンのスタジオ。
It's been really cold lately, so I've been practicing in the studio. Talking to everyone makes me think about how every idea has meaning. It's so wonderful.

I'll do something if it's fun, and if something isn't fun I try to make it fun!

My mom used to say that your bad points can become your good points.

I think that's because you decide yourself what's good and bad!

I hate minuses.
The only minus I like is minus ions.

It's thinking of the pluses that makes a happy life.

If I could I want to make everything fun!

To Denny's: to have a meeting at Denny's

Tomi's mother made me breakfast for tomorrow. Yay! I wanted to eat this forever so I'm so happy! I can't wait for tomorrow!

I slept allday yesterday because I had a fever. I thought I had the flu, so I went to the hospital in the morning, but they said "Don't worry, you don't have the swine flu. We know you were worried, but just rest for a day and you'll be find. Come in if you start coughing."

So I was like "Oh, I see!", and I went home and slept all day, and now I'm better. I felt like I healed myself with my will.

Tomorrow I'll be back to work!!

I didn't like to do nothing all day, so I drew a picture.

I drew the members all Disney style. I'll post the picture when I'm done!

Hee hee. Taking pictures is so much fun!☆

At Tae-chan's house☆

We've been in the studio making songs.

Lately we've been writing songs differently. We've been writing the lyrics first.

It's amazing to watch those words gradually become songs.

It makes me so happy to see them grow stronger through everyone's emotions. We can shine more!

Oh! Also! I think we'll announce our December show soon!
It's a little late, but let's have fun!

Hey, it's Leader, 21 years old!

Thanks so much to everyone who wrote messages for me!

My 21st birthday began with a happy surprise from everyone at 802 and the girls. It feels so strange to be 21. When I was 20, I hated the idea of becoming an adult. But now that I'm 21, I want to take a big first step towards preparing to have a wonderful time in my thirties I think that being a grown up means being able to build a wonderful life for yourself.

I don't want my heart to freeze with lies or pride. So I'm going to start off by lighting up my heart so I can warm up everything that started to freeze while I was 20.

And now my birthday is over. When the clock struck midnight, I felt like Cinderella. (LOL)

I've never been so sad to see a birthday end!

Thanks so much everyone!

Happy birthday, Leader!

I hope your 21st year is a great one!
The end of 20 is the beginning of 21.
If you believe it will be a good year, I know it will be.

Happy Birthday!

2 months until my birthday.

I'm going to do everything I can to make the rest of my 20th year the best it can be, until I turn another year!

We're having a meeting! Leader turns 21 today! I hope she shines!

I took so many photos today!☆

took a bunch of photos of everyone concentrating at the studio today.

I even dreamed about writing a song, maybe because we tried out the new songs in the studio yesterday. I think it was a good song, but I can't remember it!

We'll be in the studio again today.
I have to hurry and get my bike.

Lately there's been so much sad news.

I rememeber when I was little, I always asked my mom, "How come they show the News on TV so many times every single day?" How would she know, right?

We got back home to Osaka, and today we all went into the studio together for the first time in a while. It was my first time playing drums in a while.

When I check the balance of the sound to begin with, I usually play 'Chameleon' for some reason, and that kind of got me pumped.

Before I went into the studio I went to see John B Chopper and Mikio Ito at BIG CAT. They were so cool!

I checked to see if they have a show soon but it doesn't look like there's anything planned. Let's look into that.

In the studio. This is my second time in the studio today~♪

Cafe at home. Having tea at Saki's house.

We've been working individually for 8 days! It's gone by so fast! What?

We've got 16 days, and now that half of it's over, I realized that it hasn't been how I imagined, and that made me sad. Like, Dammit! I can't do what I thought I could do.

Then I remembered what Ryo Ishibashi said yesterday at the Yusaku Matsuda memorial concert. "Yusaku-san always told me, 'This ain't the time for crying!' "

Yesterday those words really resonated with me.

I remembered that and I thought, "This ain't the time for being depressed!"
So what if it's not like I thought! If I have a goal, I need to just do are much as I can! It's not over yet! I just have to keep going!

You can always keep going, so it's okay to start now.

I thought, 'I gotta keep going!' and that put me back on track. (LOL)

Through Ryo Ishibashi, I got some strength from Yusaku Matsuda.

I'm going to continue on!

Tomorrow Tae-chin and Ikasu will be coming home with amazing songs and amazing lyrics. ☆

Ikasu and I have been in Tokyo since the 4th. We're writing music. We've borrowed the help of that shining person, and we're excited over all the different viewpoints.

Today we're working on our own. I wanted to write some new lyrics, but I played around with the song we're making now and got stuck.

I want to do this not right, but in a way that I enjoy.

What's right changes all the time.
Things change now.
So I want to trust what I like and what I enjoy.

We're staying in Shibuya, and the hotel has a great view. Around 3 the sun was right by the side of the building and it was so pretty!

I wish I could have shown it to you guys.

Going to see our super engineer!☆

I'm just realizing now just how good Michael was.

Even though I knew.

I wondered, "Why can't I live back then? Why is he dead now?"

But maybe that's not right. I did want to feel just how amazing Michael was, and be able to really feel the music of that period, but it's not that.

There is good music being made now, in this era I'm living in.

I can make that music.

And then years later, someone can listen to that music, and make new music. If that keeps happening, this world will always have music.

We just have to live now, and create it now!

Legends don't die. And death doesn't start a legend.

Legends are born now! Now while we're alive!

The sunlight through the treees and a tambourine.

Practicing~!

We're all drinking. With Yukki-san.

The elemetary school kids Saki met today. Aren't they cute?

Title: 'Is it Christmas? Today we're at the hutch to see Suga Shikao play. It start now! I can't wait!

Today while I was playing at the park, some boys were playing ball.
The ball came really close to me and I got kind of scared cuz I thought it would hit me. LOL

After a moment the boys came over. I thought they had just come close by, but there were so many! I didn't want to lose, so I start playing jet wave. And then boys started dancing!

Oh! Way to go boys!

Then after a while three girls came and listened behind me. I talked to them a little and they knew Oreska Band. Thanks so much!

They were 6th graders from my old elementary school. As we chatted I realized it's changed a little since when I was there.

For example I was kind of shocked to hear that some kids use honorifics when talking to upper class mates. I don't think we had much of a hierarchy when I was in elementary school.

They talked about the kids they had crushes on, and squealed a little, and it brought back all these memories.

All these things I'd almost forgotten about came back to me, and had a really nice time.

I wonder if I can be like those kids, and say that I like what I like? Wait, I guess I still do that. (LOL)

There's still hope for me yet. (LOL)

But I think those shining smiles of theirs are smile you can only make during that period of your life.

I'm 20 now. I want to make my 20 year old smile shine bright.

I'm glad I met them.

Apparently you call the muscles on the inside the inner muscles!

How obvious!

Today I played my horn in the park. It felt great, and it was warm out.
It put me in a great mood.

Lately I really look forward to taking a bath.

I'm not one for long baths, but yesterday I got kind of into it, like, "Yeah, this is what Japanese people love!"

The moment you realize you like something is always the beginning of an adventure.

Love her so much!

Today I'm off to Tokyo for a little bit. I'm going to write songs with a certain person.

I can't wait!

I want to make them and have you all listen to them!

Someday I'll be able to let you know who that certain person is.

When you grasp the feeling of something, what that feeling makes you feel is often important.

Today was Culture Day, so there were boys playing baseball in the park when I went to play my trumpet.

How nice.
If I was born a boy, I'd play baseball.
Or maybe soccer!

I didn't want to get in their way, so I went with my mother to Yamato River to play trumpet. My mom just watched, but she stayed out in the cold with me.

My mom knows nothing about the trumpet, but she makes comments based on how it makes her feel, like "That note sounded weird!"

Feelings are hard to understand, but they're important.
And what we feel when we try to understand them is also a feeling.

I feel like something important began today. It was a wonderful day.

Thanks, Mom.

An old friend came to hang out at Ticktac!

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Moriko's mom makes such good coffee...

I'm so moved!!

Things have been really stimulated lately.

OKAMOTO’S...

What a great band! I was really surprised@

Starting yesterday I have 16 days. It's up to me how to spend them. And actually, I have my life, and how to spend that is up to me too.

I want to always enjoy things!
To hesitate and make mistakes
because that's how you can see what the right answer is.

If you don't make something happen, you'll always be looking at the same scenery.

If your days are boring, then make a move! It's up to you to make to make tomorrow shine! Up to yourself.

Every day is so important, and if you waste your days, it's all up to you. And me.

Horn Meeting♪

I'm so glad we got the chance to make some memories with students who are following their dreams.

We made some really important memories. Thanks so much!

I hope we'll be able to make some more memories again some time.

So many important things I can't forget happened. Every day became a good memory!

I hope this continues!

With all the shows, I got across so many thoughts and feelings.

In this three days, I've stored up so many emotions and I think I'll let them explode at our next show.

I've had so much fun!

Today our month of shows are over. I got a lot from it, both joy and regrets. I wonder when you'll be listening to it all.

Our last show was at Visual Arts, and it was built by many students. I was so happy they let us play for them!

I went back home, when to the Quattro, and went to Minami Wheel. I saw Black Cat Chelsea, and OKAMOTO'S. They were both really cool.

The Visual Arts students and those two bands are all younger than I am. I know that, but I can't really believe it.

I learned a lot today.